As I’ve gone through life, I’ve let each person shape a new chapter in my story. I’ve riddled the pages with details of them, hoping not to forget. For all of my favorite details, I put a bookmarker on, saving the page so I can flip right back at any moment.
What you may not know about writing, until it happens to you, is that sometimes you get stuck on a story because you’re working with the wrong idea. You’re trying to force a concept that you’re not passionate about, that’s not you. I found this out when I met a new concept, started a new story. A chapter in, I ran out of bookmarks for all of the perfect details that I wanted to flip right back to.
Nothing made me happier than going through, pulling the bookmarks off of every page of my old story, and dedicating them to this one, trusting it’s it. It doesn’t mean that I’ve forgotten the story I had worked on for all of these years but some things are worth releasing, no matter how long you’ve kept them around.
With this one, I set my mind free, from the past.
Mind
I: “I feel like we just fucked for hours by that answer”
I fell for you in the best possible way, mind first.
A: “turning you on didn’t really need an explanation, but I appreciate it”
I was happy to appeal to you, in any way possible.
I: “I don’t care about your situation. I only want your mind. Will you share it with me?”
I’ve never wanted anything more than to share my mind with someone.
A: “I frequently become infatuated with fictional characters”
Welcome to your role as the protagonist.
I: “I want to push this fire into the inferno stage”
Seven years later, I’m still working to put it out.
A: “normally someone that thinks as highly of themselves as you seem to would irritate me and make me want to punch them in the face, but I can’t help but find it endearing in you
I sway between your admittance of narcissism and my theory of insecurity.
I: “Just keep being you, and I’ll stick around for some time”
I test to see if you’ll get scared and pull back, you never do.
A: “I like letting someone else be in control”
Eventually, I need to take it back, though. I’m just waiting for the right moment.
Much love, until next time.
Madeline May I... 