It’s only looking back on my experiences, on my decisions, that I see them with a more forgiving lens. It’s as if I need enough distance between who I am and that version of me to treat her like a stranger. I am so forgiving of strangers.
It’s only looking back on my experiences that I see the reason I often decided to go against previously made agreements with myself is that I finally came to see that decision was made in a moment of fear. I will always turn my back on fear, walk away, anytime I find it in disguise.
Prove Me Wrong
I’ve spent a lot of my life
saying I wouldn’t
only to turn around and find myself
doing things
that I said I never would.
For a long time
I think
this is what made me believe myself
not trustworthy.
Now, I’m starting to see
my tendency
to stay open, free
from my own limitations
is what prepared me
to accept
my ability to accomplish,
my worthiness to have,
everything
I said I never could
back when I thought
proving myself wrong was bad.
Much love, until next time.
Madeline May I... 