This has been the only place I’ve felt safe opening up about my spiritual crisis, awakening, that more often than not feels like a rollercoaster of psychosis. I spent about a third of my time wondering if I’m just going crazy. For the third that follows, I remind myself that it benefits the darkness in the world if we believe Light and Love are crazy. The remaining third – I’ll call it 51% just because it feels powerful enough that it should count as the majority, in energy, even if it’s equal in time – is where the magic happens. I own my power, my beliefs. I remind myself that crazy isn’t quite the right C-word for me. No, it’s not that other one either. But I’ll take courageous, capable, creative. There’s plenty of C-words that fit and I’m determined to make that 51% soar to at least 90 in no time at all.
Thank you for being here, journeying with me, and letting me feel safe sharing as I grow. I promise, I’d do the same for you. It’s all out of love.
Evil Infiltration
I spent a lot of days saying I’d start tomorrow.
Eat better
Drink less
Smoke less
Care more
Finally shower
Fold the clothes
Wash the dishes
Go to work
Take care of myself
Be responsible
Own the Life I’ve been granted
I wasted a lot of days
Saying I needed to rest
Worrying away my rest
Needing to rest tomorrow
Just one more day and then I’ll start
Tomorrow never comes
Things pile up higher
The darkness invades your rest
You think you’re caring
Handling things
Have to think about them
Let them go
Evil finds power only in your mind
Today
Take control, ownership
of your own mind
Evil
Says wait for tomorrow.
Much love, until next time.
Madeline May I... 