I think back often to sitting at the bar next to a mostly stranger and letting him order a shot he thinks I’ll like as he explains to me how he came across his newfound confidence when he just woke up one day and decided it was who he was ready to be. I hadn’t known him before this supposed shift so immediately I called into question if it’s even possible for a transformation of that magnitude to happen to a person at all let alone as quickly and intentionally decided as he claims it was. I’m at least half a decade out from that date and sometimes I just want to reach out and say thank you, I finally get it, it really is possible.
Titles
I feel like a fraud any time I try to claim a new title
The word could resonate so deeply that my body turns electric
but no one else can feel it so maybe I just imagined it
self-doubt has never been my friend but I believe in the electricity
Sometimes I write the words instead of speaking them
maybe if it doesn’t cross my lips, I won’t cringe at the sound
I hear that people are often intimidated by growth
I hope this is simply that it’s even more so when it’s your own
I don’t think I’m enough of anything to call myself it
So when I’m home alone, by myself, doodling on journals
I scribble the word Shamanic
Much love, until next time.
Madeline May I... 