I’ve never fallen so hard in love as I did after I learned that I can love myself, too. For the longest time, every new person I’d meet, I’d drop my old self and try them on, hoping for a better fit. It took me years, decades of my life to realize that it never is.
It was maybe a month between saying this was my year to work on myself, show myself the love I deserve, and when I met the partner I deserve. I still say it’s my year to work on myself, I’m just letting myself do it not alone.
An Apology
I’m sorry.
I’m sorry that I ever made you think
at least she’s going home with me
that’s not enough
it’s not who I want to be
my love for you is never at least
always overflowing
it’s busting at the seams
I want to know you’re secure
always safe with me
whether I’m standing next to you
or wandering outside
I want you to know
you’re the only one, always on my mind
I’m sorry I let you think
at least was enough love
you could have it all
it still wouldn’t be enough
Much love, until next time.
Madeline May I... 