I have life the best I ever have. I have the support to approach hard things that I never had. Sometimes though, by sometimes I mean every day, anything can make me cry at the drop of a hat.
Big Feelings
My wife left me
I spent hours bawling
Soaking my boyfriend’s chest
The one that lived then
But he’s dead with the rest
You’ll meet new people
He uttered his best
But I won’t meet new people
so perfectly her
my work wife, my confidant
I won’t see any more
How couldn’t he get it
How couldn’t he see
This wasn’t a big deal
But a huge one for me
I struggled with abandonment
Struggle is the right word
Nothing past tense
But the last time I’ve seen her
We talk about children
My boyfriend and I
But the one that lives now
The one by my side
He gets how emotions
They grow so big
Bursting out of little bodies
Always erupting from kids
My boyfriend, he gets it
I’m still a kid too
Just with a big body
But emotions too big, they grew
They erupt like a fountain
Always streaming down my face
But he kisses them away
No matter how inopportune the place
So thankful for the boyfriends
That never understood
So grateful for the hope
that one finally would
Much love, until next time.
Madeline May I... 