I can’t be held responsible for other people’s opinions and perspectives of my experiences. I remember befriending someone after not liking them. This doesn’t mean that I’m fake – it just means that I can set aside my emotional reactions to situations to see the truth beyond my triggers. It means that even when there are upsetting stimuli, I don’t let my reaction become my response because I know it’s only filtered through the lens of my own experiences and understanding and I’d rather grow my understanding to include more empathy, and hold more perspectives. If something sounds too good to be true, maybe it is – or maybe I choose to focus more on gratitude than you.
Idealize
He listens to me
Never discredits my feelings
just because he’s not experiencing them
He asks me
what I think about things
listens, like he actually cares
what I think about things
He kisses
my shoulders and back
in the middle of the night
half asleep
asks what’s wrong
when I sniffle in response
It’s not that he’s never hurt me
Everyone has
I’m so sensitive
the wind can scar me
so sure, I’ve been hurt
but I can always tell him
he always takes me seriously
even when I laugh through it
still nervous
waiting for past explosions to hit
he asks what he can do
asks if I want a hug
apologizes for even the unintentional wrongs
and so when you can’t understand
why I write like he’s ideal
it’s because even when things aren’t ideal
we handle each other with support and love, we heal
Much love, until next time.
Madeline May I... 