Trauma will teach you to be who people want you to be but the truth is, no matter how much you try to bury the parts of yourself that they don’t want to see, they’ll always be there and someday they’ll win over.
I think about cases of multiple personalities and I’m no doctor, I can’t provide an opinion based on decades of research and studies but I can tell you that people fragment when they don’t feel safe. They chip away, break off parts of themselves and bury them somewhere inside. But the truth always comes out and the true you is whole. Whatever you suppress long enough will be forced to slip out when you’re not looking. So are we really looking at cases of multiple personalities or are we just seeing the parts that are begging for acceptance?
I know it sounds silly to believe that love can fix everything, but I think silly has a place too.
Audience
What I didn’t always know:
is that a boyfriend is not meant
to be an audience
you are not an actress
putting on a show
don’t wait for his applause
before making your next move
it may never come
but you – you will still want to move
when they say you just haven’t found your audience
again, they do not mean boyfriend
sure, maybe some of the time it applied to both
but you can not step out of a relationship
with the same casualty that you step off the stage
for the audience, building suspense
when you know it’s just a routine, wardrobe change
you must allow your story to develop over time
this requires a firm understanding of commitment
a willingness to accept that things might not end
the way you intended at the start, maybe not at all
but you still need to trust yourself to start
be open enough to see what grows of this idea
I’m sorry, I forgot
we weren’t talking about boyfriend
now I am
now I know
now I understand
maybe I’m still not talking about boyfriend
maybe I’m talking about love
how it grows like a good story, requiring an initial interest
but not giving everything away at once
leave room for things to develop
having no fixed destination
but a commitment – willingness
to embark on the journey together
you see
a boyfriend is not meant to be an audience
and you, my dear, are no actress
love will not ask you to put on a show
but don’t be alarmed at the encouragement to show
vulnerability, willingness to change and grow
you won’t know where this is going
just that at the end
this one will be a story that you co-wrote
Much love, until next time.
Madeline May I... 