The first three lines smack me in the face the second I open the cabinet and reach for a mug to fill will coffee, to carry me over when a 3am feeding turns into an inability to sleep. I have this itching reminder to find something productive to do with my energy so when my mind is swimming with anger, frustration, I turn it into creativity.
Dishware
You are not a cup
You do not have to hold
what others fill you with
toxic spillage, poisonous shit
You are not a plate
You do not have to take
what others decide to dish
It’s your life, create it as you wish
You are not a bowl
your contents not to be emptied
picked up, chugged, gulped
swallow you whole
and yes, my dear, you will hold things
but let them be love and space
and there are times you will be served
accept with gratitude – and hope they are not legal documents
but if they are, allow it to be for a cause you believe in
and there may be times that you find yourself empty
trust that it’s an opportunity to be filled with what serves you, now
Know that tastes do change
You will not always be
everyone’s favorite variety
but don’t be discouraged
Trust that you will find people
that savor you, cherish
You. Will. Be. their favorite dish
and there will be times
you will find yourself hoping
that they splay you across the table
and eat you
over, and over, and over again
allow this feeling to consume you
at least from time to time
But never be afraid of the change
For it is not healthy to become what you fear
and you will be the change
and you will be healthy, I swear
You won’t always be ashamed
feeling the need to hide what fills you,
what you crave
and there will be spaces where you feel safe
not everyone reaches for the knife
before taking the time to appreciate what was made
and you will be made
So let it be by yourself, for yourself
Take the time to remake
over, and over, and over again
until you like the results you are left with
and when you finally think you’ve got it perfect
Don’t be afraid when you’re ready to change
No, the effort was not in vain
And always remember –
Your purpose can not be found in how you are used.
You are not a cup.
You are not a bowl.
You are not a plate.
Much love, until next time.
Madeline May I... 