Poetry Series – Growing Pains

The hardest thing to remember about growing is that not everyone will grow at the same rate. There will be times you grow so tall that the world as you know it is seen from a whole new perspective. We call this a shift. Some people will say in consciousness. I’m not sure if I’m there just yet. I’m still finding it hard to use my voice, some days. It’s how I know I’m not there just yet. But here I am, still going, doing my best.

Growing Pains

There are versions of myself
I will never be again
people
I will never see again
it doesn’t matter
That I once called them friend

There’s a fear
that I’ll outgrow current people too
people I know
will become people I knew
that when I think of them
I’ll have to wonder what they’re up to

I’m trying to let go
release my need to know
observe and let flow
I know it’s what I need to do to grow
But I still get a sinking feeling when I’m alone
Still tense when I see a shadow

I wonder if I’ll always feel like this
if the fear will fade
once feelings aren’t repressed
I wonder if finding myself
will create a mess
consider being alone
and I get depressed

I ask my if I’m ready
how will I know
Change can be steady
but sometimes there’s rapid growth
when do I wait for others to catch up
and when do I just go

Much love, until next time.