Life has been huge amounts of messy lately. One blow after the next and I’m trying to keep my balance but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t stumbling over the mess from time to time. But I keep getting back up, dusting myself off, checking to make sure the marbles in my head are just disheveled and not full-blown missing before carrying right back on with my mission.
So here’s to my latest mess.
Concussion
I have a concussion to make
CRASH
I mean, I have a confession to make
Test.
I’m… I’m… I’m so sorry. I totaled your car.
Dummy.
My head bouncy-balled off the window and now I’m fuzzy.
I’m… I’m…. I’m so sorry.
Please don’t be angry, please don’t yell
My pinball brain, head exploding, feels like it’s starting to swell
And I get flashes
Of light, of wondering if I should have been
a little more through the intersection
Collide with my door
Crash test dummy me around some more
And it was an accident
I’m… I’m… I’m so sorry
At least 40 miles in a 25, I think that man just thought he could fly
Only real life calls for slowing you down
Gravity hits, everything to the ground
And I ground
myself in thinking thank goodness I’m alive
thank my lucky stars, it wasn’t my time to die
But now my head’s in the clouds, floats away
My vision blurs, edges turn gray
Volcano emotions, erupting tears down my face
Teeth vice grip my tongue, afraid of what I’ll say
I’m sorry I wrecked your car,
but thank you for showing me love’s never far
I reached to release the restraints in an attempt to escape
Froze when I touched them, icicled me into place
Crash
and I’m shattered
brain feels scattered
Test
my ability to rebound.
Rock bottom is well below the ground
Dummy
It’s not funny
but I keep on laughing
500 dollar deductible
when we’ve got no money
but I’m still breathing so life’s still sunny
Much love, until next time.
Madeline May I... 