My greatest journey in life has been remembering how to consistently be myself, consistently love. It’s still a work in progress but, I’m finally letting my weird be weird to the people who find it weird without feeling the need to suppress it.
Dreamscapes
The bathrooms are finally clean, I can go in them – though still nervous.
I chose where to eat and ordered something for dinner! Just glanced at the possibilities and actually asked for what I wanted!
Sure, I’m also confused on why I chose Raisin Bran and wish I could remember what came after that but, it’s my season of not judging myself so I can only imagine it was well-reasoned.
I flew! And this time it wasn’t at my parent’s home. Feeling lighter, this comes with relief.
I’m still pondering the gift – magical rainbow sand mountain, but I climbed it!
No trouble adjusting to the elevation because I’ve been waiting, readying.
See the truth is, I’m worthy of good things.
And you are too.
But I used to dream of abandoned locker rooms cause I had some work to do.
Searching for a bathroom, either filthy, without privacy, sometimes both it seems.
You see, until recently, I’ve only been myself when I’m alone.
Google connected these dots for me because I just can’t help but pull out my phone and search for a dream.
But my dreams are in me, so I started putting it down, instead of myself.
Believe there’s a time and place for everything, if only I could find the time to place everything – I’d been misplacing a lot.
The right parts, the wrong time, and nothing but indecision drowning out my mind.
When I closed my eyes, I’d be graced with the endless loop of being hungry, looking for dinner, and not knowing until it was too late what I should choose.
Proudly, I connected these ones, doing the work until the work is done, and finding time along the way to make it fun.
See, my dreams talk to me, and maybe yours do too.
Try it out, all you’ve got to do is…
Quiet your mind to decipher the meaning of whatever cryptic fucking language the universe will use.
But believe me, it’s worth it to
Align with your truth.
Much love, until next time.
Madeline May I... 