I’ve been having a hard time accepting that I can have let myself down in the past AND show up for myself in the future. For someone who so desperately believes that people can change.. I haven’t done great at offering myself the grace and space to do so. So cheers to coexisting – cause its ok to be different. Change is beautiful and necessary. After all, everything is only temporary. So why not enjoy all of it.
Two, Coexist
To coexist peacefully:
One can be both frozen and visibly moving.
They can love you, deeply, and still hurt you.
Something can be terrifying AND beautiful.
People can want to be kind, and not know how to.
We weren’t all tucked into bed with tenderness.
For some of us, belt followed our footsteps
until we learned to tiptoe into the emptiness.
But we can grow to be held long enough,
we return to our loudness.
Once I read a sentiment – loud children are those who feel safe.
So when they’re laughing and I can’t catch my breath because im overwhelmed,
I’ve stopped trying to quell them into silence as if their sounds have robbed me of my oxygen.
Rather, I start holding it in until my lungs refuse to contain anymore, I end up gasping until there’s nothing and somewhere in that space,
I find the gates to heaven and step right in. Still in my body, not even dead.
Now I’m laughing too and my home is free
From scared children – a reminder that joy is so often the cure for overwhelm.
Much love, until next time.
Madeline May I... 