The world is (unhinged) right now. I am taking deep breaths, trying to ground myself in a reality worthy of staying in. I am mindful of what is crossing the threshold of my boundaries. Listening within the quiet, I recognize – I’ve been hiding.
As I re-emerge and reenter my own body, I settle on creating a future that I am EXCITED to step in to.
So, if fear is still lingering…
why’d you let him in?
Abstinence
My body was not built for sex, but bred for creation.
So, as much as I’ve never been one to practice abstinence,
I’ve been debating whether or not it might be the ticket
to truly fulfilling sex. Infuriatingly, I’m full of contradictions like this.
Like give me slow touch but be open to me going fast.
Everything is meant to happen on my terms – is that really too much to ask?
Compromise is settling and I should get a medal in how willing I’ve been to stick to adapting cause without the recognition, there’s no way I’ve been winning unless I’m only listening within.
I am redirecting to a new path in which I am not asked to adapt or accept less.
I am brought offering and fearlessly reject them knowing if they didnt feel aligned
then better must be coming. I’ve had my sights set on only what I thought possible –
like fossil fuels and magic mushrooms but, when I close my eyes,
I can make the whole room move. Reopen them to a shifted perspective; entirely new view.
My voice can be a weapon but it can also be a tool. Through my discretion,
I choose which to use. Through your actions, you play a hand in deciding too.
Though, some day soon, I will have taken deep enough root into the truth
that nothing you do will rattle me loose. Just like that, a weapon will be worthless
in comparison to just sharing the truth. My voice is my gift so with these words,
I offer severance to the cord that has kept me silenced. Never again will I be scared that
the truth will slip so if fear still exists…
you must be scared*, bitch. 😉
Much love, until next time.
Madeline May I... 