I’ve spent much of my life thinking everything had to be very black and white, right or wrong. I approached with the idea that anything that is “wrong” then needs to be kept from surfacing and only the good should show. Life isn’t really that black and white though. The more I experience, the moreContinue reading “Secrecy vs Privacy”
Author Archives: Payge Gray
Feeding the Body
Have you ever felt so out of control that you’ll grab on to anything just to regain a sense of it? I once heard that children that have gone through traumatic experiences will hold their poop in and push themselves into constipation as an attempt to have a sense of control over part of theirContinue reading “Feeding the Body”
What’s in the Dark?
“We don’t expect a surgeon to have shame in sharing the same tools as a killer…” So I must confess as I make this reference that I’ve never really seen all of Star Wars but, we’ve all heard of the dark side, right? “Come to the dark side”, as memes, advertisements and jokes of allContinue reading “What’s in the Dark?”
Eyes Black, Heart Attack
The second time I admitted myself into the hospital, part of what drove me there was not understanding the strange things I was starting to experience. I thought, certainly, that I must be going crazy. I still don’t always understand what I’m seeing, hearing, feeling – but it’s gotten a bit easier to allow myselfContinue reading “Eyes Black, Heart Attack”
Excitement, Energy and What are we doing with it?
There’s so many questions I could ask to start this one off so let’s get them all out there and in your head. What do you find yourself the most excited when you are doing? What do you do to get yourself excited about a new day? What is excitement even and what can weContinue reading “Excitement, Energy and What are we doing with it?”
Duality and Love
“…I started my transformation as an explosion, and eruption of me.” I spent a few months working with a life coach before settling on the fact that I was much too prone to suggestion to be working with another person to create the life of my dreams. Sure, it’s helpful to be given the toolsContinue reading “Duality and Love”
Hospital Stay
My yoga mat was carefully placed in the middle of the doorway, halfway into the hall and half into my room at the hospital – floor 7, general adult. The first time I admitted myself into a psychiatric hospital it was with the encouragement of Isaac after I spent the night on his couch becauseContinue reading “Hospital Stay”
Movie Moments
I remember watching the movie “Keith“, and as Keith refers to the “goodbye scene” all I could think was HAH! See, it’s not just me! Other people see it too! Our lives are comprised of a series of movie moments! Do you know what I’m referring to? It’s those major, impactful moments in your lifeContinue reading “Movie Moments”
Isaac – A Necessary Introduction
“It’s not that I’m obsessed with him or anything. It’s just that, well maybe I used to be.” I know, you’ve come to hear my story and I’m over here getting ready to ramble on about some boy. Is that all this is? Another tale of a delusional girl that’s just a little bit tooContinue reading “Isaac – A Necessary Introduction”
From the Beginning
From time to time, I pause and ask myself where exactly this all started – this journey to healing. Sure, we’ve touched on Isaac’s role but truthfully, I can never conclusively decide on an answer. The question always takes me back to the first time I was sitting across from a psychic, though. At theContinue reading “From the Beginning”
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