I’ve spent my whole life scared and I wouldn’t be surprised if that trend continues. The difference between my current fear and my past fear is that I’ve learned how, presently, to keep it from stopping me more often than not. Sometimes working up courage takes 3 days and pulling on every experience of whenContinue reading “Poetry Series – Ready”
Tag Archives: Authenticity
Poetry Series – Shame
I keep promising myself no judgment but it’s hard when I watch my over-ambitious plans be patched together and then come crumbling apart as soon as they get close. Sometimes it’s situational, out of my control, but sometimes I’m backing out, feeling out of control. I promised myself a conversation this week, it didn’t happen.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Shame”
Poetry Series – Outside Will
I had listened to enough outside influences for so long that I remember telling my therapist one day that I had no idea who I even was. It felt pathetic but like it was the truest thing I could say at the moment. Sometimes, I still surprise myself but overall I know myself well enoughContinue reading “Poetry Series – Outside Will”
Poetry Series – Love Protest
I read an article that said bulimia can be formed as a result of unhealthy attachments to a mother’s love, rooted all the way back in the nursing stage of development. I’m absolutely buying it. The idea is that the toxicity of the milk, caused by ill-thought and negative feelings, can create a disconnect inContinue reading “Poetry Series – Love Protest”
Poetry Series – Sometimes, Have I felt
I feel like sometimes I just need to keep pushing a little bit further and I’ll make it. I’m not sure what I’m trying to make it to and quite frankly, it doesn’t matter. The belief that I’ll make it there is enough to get me to the next moment, to take the next step,Continue reading “Poetry Series – Sometimes, Have I felt”
Poetry Series – Confessions
I’m more than in the mood to sit down and give my demons names and faces. They’ve been around an awful lot lately – some people just seem to surface them. If your default reaction is to encourage someone to stay away from the people that pull their darkness to the surface, I encourage youContinue reading “Poetry Series – Confessions”
Poetry Series – Falling Back
I’m hoping that if I throw out into the void, often enough, that sometimes I just see things when I close my eyes, hear things amongst the quiet, feel things when I’m alone, know things before I’m told, maybe someone will say hey, me too. I was in the middle of another poem, trying toContinue reading “Poetry Series – Falling Back”
Poetry Series – Turning Corners
I haven’t seen my therapist in about 3 and a half months now. I’m not saying that as either good or bad, simply a fact. Some days I miss her terribly, is that weird? Does it get any less weird if I tell you it’s because after 6 years working with her I finally workedContinue reading “Poetry Series – Turning Corners”
Poetry Series – Observation
For a long time, I refused to be around anyone when I started to spiral. Maybe calling it a spiral sounds back but that’s likely because it’s associated with downward rather than revisiting. I’ve been spiraling for about 8 days now, upward and learning but spiraling nonetheless. I considered closing myself off from absolutely everyoneContinue reading “Poetry Series – Observation”
Poetry Series – No Competition
In the car on the way home from the zoo, I was talking to my son about the importance of following dreams and not letting fear of what people might think to hold us back from them. When he asked me what I wanted to be at his age, eight, I blanked. I don’t rememberContinue reading “Poetry Series – No Competition”
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