It has been the kind of week that I didn’t think I would make it through without destroying my life. I often forget that there’s a power in pausing and allowing before reacting out of fear, based off of emotion. One of the hardest things about healing, for me, is learning when to trust thatContinue reading “Poetry Series – Waves”
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Poetry Series – Psychic
As I continue to grow, I think one of the hardest things for me to accept is that sometimes our goodbyes are better done silently. There will be people that you have to let go of and wish well without ever actually getting your goodbye, your closure. Even harder still is knowing when to trustContinue reading “Poetry Series – Psychic”
Poetry Series – Laughter
I long thought I needed someone to help calm, help balance, the wildness raging inside of me. If only I could find someone stable enough to tone me down to a reasonable volume, yet I’d scream the moment they tried to mute me. It turns out all of this time, the only thing I reallyContinue reading “Poetry Series – Laughter”
Poetry series – The Matrix to My Umbel
The difference in perspectives captivates me. After all, how can you not be amazed that a simple object can vary so greatly just based on the view you take? What looks flush and level from a head-on view could be a series of pieces, held out from one central location, stemming out to create anContinue reading “Poetry series – The Matrix to My Umbel”
Even in my Weakness, I am Strong.
(Sensitive content/trigger warnings: abuse – sexual, mental/emotional/physical) I talk about general dysfunction in relationships far more than I gravitate toward the topic of abuse – whether it be physical, mental, or emotional. My immediate assumption was that I must have just gotten the most abusive relationships out of the way early and tackled those firstContinue reading “Even in my Weakness, I am Strong.”
Poetry Series – Storm
Do you ever stop and think about the way the song you just love was really written about some person out there that you’ll never know? It wasn’t a factor I had necessarily considered until I started writing about people I know, realizing that whoever reads this likely won’t. Honestly, it’s one of my favoriteContinue reading “Poetry Series – Storm”
Oh, So This is Why People Love Their Uncles.
Family dynamics have always confused me more than I tend to let on. Honestly, there are a lot of basic things that leave me puzzled in similar ways. In moments of dissociation, I leave myself feeling even crazier as I recall all of these things and ask why I’m so caught off guard by simpleContinue reading “Oh, So This is Why People Love Their Uncles.”
Poetry Series – Ex-plosions
I think maybe it was after my last relationship that went south, I confessed to Isaac that I felt silly and embarrassed at this point even acknowledging it when I date someone. What used to be months together before destruction now seems to only be weeks and I’m wondering if it’s me at this point.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Ex-plosions”
Boyfriend – Introductions
I wouldn’t call myself a commitment-phobe but had I let the issue go just a little bit longer without addressing it, that’s likely where I would have ended up – scared. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still scared but this is the manageable fear I want to lean into rather than debilitating fear shutting meContinue reading “Boyfriend – Introductions”
Falling
Growth and learning aren’t linear. There are some basics we have to get down before we move on to the more complex lessons, challenges. This means from time to time it can look like chaos, jumping around from idea to idea, pulling in all of the related concepts. Later, further into your lessons, you’re goingContinue reading “Falling”
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