I’m tired of feeling like the people around me are the enemy. I’m tired of becoming the enemy because I’m trying so hard not to be. Sometimes we just need to pause, retreat, realign, and reemerge more lovingly. Honestly, I See Monsters HonestlyI don’t want a need to surviveto reduce me to weaving a webContinue reading “Poetry Series – Honestly, I See Monsters”
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Poetry Series – Hateful, Call me Ungrateful
It’s not always easy to stop from taking my feelings out on those closest to me. In the same way that children throw tantrums with the people they are the most comfortable around, knowing they’re safe and loved through them, I have this natural inclination to push the limits of just how much I canContinue reading “Poetry Series – Hateful, Call me Ungrateful”
Poetry Series – Liar
I’ve been working on myself for a long time. I’ve been tired of myself for a long time. I’ve resolved to stay by myself for a long time. Now, even when I’m with someone else, sometimes I just can’t help but see the patterns of myself. Liar I hate hearing lies come out of yourContinue reading “Poetry Series – Liar”
Poetry Series – Winter is Coming
I started getting signs before I knew that they were signs. Even now as I get them, if I try to figure out what they mean, I almost never do. I need to step back and look at the world around me, and the situations I’m in for what they are without the emotional attachmentContinue reading “Poetry Series – Winter is Coming”
Poetry Series – The Devil is in Church
I wait until my boyfriend is trapped in the car with me, on a longer-than-I-thought drive to breakfast, following my impulses, before I decide to tell him the story about where I was two nights before. Looking back, the whole thing sounds like a setup for one of those bad jokes – you know theContinue reading “Poetry Series – The Devil is in Church”
Poetry Series – Glass
Four hours earlier, I’m stubbornly insisting that I can handle the process alone, that I’m ready. I assured anyone that would listen, to my thoughts at least, that I didn’t need to see anyone to have them fix what I’m going through. I’m fully capable of maneuvering the dark waters myself. I didn’t think ofContinue reading “Poetry Series – Glass”
Poetry Series – Hello, Demons
I had to leave my boyfriend a 5-page letter explaining that I’m having a hard time, don’t know how to be open about it and how he can help “de-escalate” me when I’m withdrawing and disassociating. Okay, I didn’t HAVE to but I either needed to do it or I was going to self-sabotage theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Hello, Demons”
Poetry Series – Perfectly Lost
I love to explore the dark but my preference is for going it solo. My shell often contrasts whatever is happening beneath the surface, for the sake of the audience – we’re striving for balance here. It’s not a hard rule but generally, the more makeup I have on, the more presentable I look, theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Perfectly Lost”
Poetry Series – Confessions
I’m more than in the mood to sit down and give my demons names and faces. They’ve been around an awful lot lately – some people just seem to surface them. If your default reaction is to encourage someone to stay away from the people that pull their darkness to the surface, I encourage youContinue reading “Poetry Series – Confessions”
Poetry Series – Exposure
There were more years than I’d like to admit in which I’d push for vulnerability and openness out of everyone I met, all the while keeping myself safe and closed off. Sometimes it was rooted in thinking that space should only be for others and I need to stop taking it up. Other times IContinue reading “Poetry Series – Exposure”
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