The only thing consistent about me tends to be my desire for growth. My fear has grown to adapt, rooting itself not in the fear that I’ll be left but in the fear that I’ll leave. My son told me he has the same fear – of getting attached, because what if I leave? I’veContinue reading “Poetry Series – Losing My Mind”
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Poetry Series – Escape Artist
I used to think that the place there was the most love was the one where I felt safe lashing out, throwing fits, taking my anger out, and then turning around and apologizing when I was done. I have a hard time accepting that I thought that’s what love was but then I remind myselfContinue reading “Poetry Series – Escape Artist”
Faces
The faces in the reflections are never the same faces as in the trees, clouds, leaves. The faces in the reflections are always looking back, looking at me, emotion heavily present across their face but the faces aren’t me. Reflections aren’t just for mirrors. I see them in the windows, on the shiny surface ofContinue reading “Faces”
Poetry Series – Constants
Everything is changing and it’s leaving me feeling like I’m losing my mind. It’s like life is running faster than I can keep up with and all I can do is slow down even more and watch. I look around and wonder how everyone else is doing it? Is everyone else falling apart behind closedContinue reading “Poetry Series – Constants”
Poetry Series – Paranoia
There’s an importance to finding balance, a point of grounding, when your opponent is a strong force. I remember wrestling, fighting, always in play but always with firmness and a need to assert myself. The most important thing you can do is get yourself firmly grounded, even if you’re not the one with the mostContinue reading “Poetry Series – Paranoia”
Poetry Series – Stories
Everywhere I look, I see the things I asked for. Life feels the most whole it has ever felt even when I’m shattering. Everyone gives me something and I only hope that I’m returning the favor, love the confirmation when I do. I’m trying to remind myself, continually, to not get swept back into theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Stories”
Poetry Series – Shame
I keep promising myself no judgment but it’s hard when I watch my over-ambitious plans be patched together and then come crumbling apart as soon as they get close. Sometimes it’s situational, out of my control, but sometimes I’m backing out, feeling out of control. I promised myself a conversation this week, it didn’t happen.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Shame”
Poetry Series – Choke
There is a time and a place. I would never… well, okay, maybe situationally. Never before have I… It seems like the more resistance I give to life and what it has to offer, the more I find myself in situations where I am proving myself wrong. As I pull on a sweatshirt with theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Choke”
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