Sometimes I still find myself haunted by ghosts of the past and when it seems like I’m missing, I’m just off fighting demons to find my way back. Here’s to knowing that sometimes, no matter how much you want to help others grow, it’s best to look inwards and focus on yourself. Death of aContinue reading “Poetry Series – Death of a Cheater”
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Poetry Series -Astronauts, Yoda, and Angels
Growing up, Nunny would tell me to marry rich. Find a good lawyer, a doctor, get hitched. When she found out I was pregnant with my second child, she told me to make sure my boyfriend works more, works harder. I smiled, laughed it off and said he works hard enough. Less than a weekContinue reading “Poetry Series -Astronauts, Yoda, and Angels”
Poetry Series – Losing My Mind
The only thing consistent about me tends to be my desire for growth. My fear has grown to adapt, rooting itself not in the fear that I’ll be left but in the fear that I’ll leave. My son told me he has the same fear – of getting attached, because what if I leave? I’veContinue reading “Poetry Series – Losing My Mind”
Poetry Series – Cheeseburger Hoagie
How I know my person is my person: cheeseburger hoagie edition. I remember thanking my high-school best friend for always coming on my questionable, poorly planned adventures with me.They’ve taken us to sleeping on the floor of the greyhound station after walking rashes into both of our thighs, afraid to take the subway.Down a creek,Continue reading “Poetry Series – Cheeseburger Hoagie”
Poetry Series – Confused Growth
It’s hard to not want to be further along in the growth process than we are once we can see the way the emotions we are dealing with are taking their toll on us. The thing is, if we were further along in the growth process than this we wouldn’t even have that train ofContinue reading “Poetry Series – Confused Growth”
Poetry Series – Rebirth
Have you ever looked back on life and realized that you’ve grown so much you don’t even recognize the version of yourself that would make the decisions you did? Accept the behaviors that you tolerated? I still have trouble sometimes finding the ability to understand that past versions of myself, to have compassion for her.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Rebirth”
Poetry Series – Far Away
Sometimes it’s the simple things that I’m the proudest of. There was a time when I would second guess myself a lot, and talk myself out of things. That doesn’t mean that it never happens now but I don’t feel the urge to pounce without thinking, out of fear that I can’t trust my thoughts.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Far Away”
Poetry Series – Don’t Go Back
I can’t shake the feeling that I’ve left people behind. Some of them I keep finding myself wanting to go back for, worried that I didn’t leave a clear path for them to follow. I get into these moods of letting go, clearing out, but then I wonder if I didn’t give something enough thoughtContinue reading “Poetry Series – Don’t Go Back”
Poetry Series – Shame
I keep promising myself no judgment but it’s hard when I watch my over-ambitious plans be patched together and then come crumbling apart as soon as they get close. Sometimes it’s situational, out of my control, but sometimes I’m backing out, feeling out of control. I promised myself a conversation this week, it didn’t happen.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Shame”
Poetry Series – Adult
The other day, I spent some time sitting in my dad’s truck talking to him about creating, art, and different projects we were working on. He was there so I could sell him a gift card because my only what’s for me approach to life means sometimes I’m piecing things together day by day asContinue reading “Poetry Series – Adult”
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