At 28, I already feel like I’ve done a lifetime’s worth of explaining myself. Sometimes it was an attempt to clear up a misunderstanding and other’s a frivolous effort to finally be understood. It’s not always easy to accept that if you have to try that hard to be understood, you won’t be. If youContinue reading “Poetry Series – Love Language”
Tag Archives: Growth
Braking
Picture a train barreling down the track at a conservative 100mph and think of the momentum it has and what it’s going to take to bring that bad boy to a halt. I am the train, just reaching full speed, as my body screams to me that we are going to need to slam onContinue reading “Braking”
Poetry Series – Best Friend
Each time someone that I found myself dating would tell me that they think of me as their best friend, I’d find myself puzzled. I couldn’t quite place what that would feel like which made it clear to me that I wasn’t thinking of them as the same. As this became a pattern, puzzled becameContinue reading “Poetry Series – Best Friend”
Poetry Series – Ex-plosions
I think maybe it was after my last relationship that went south, I confessed to Isaac that I felt silly and embarrassed at this point even acknowledging it when I date someone. What used to be months together before destruction now seems to only be weeks and I’m wondering if it’s me at this point.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Ex-plosions”
Boyfriend – Introductions
I wouldn’t call myself a commitment-phobe but had I let the issue go just a little bit longer without addressing it, that’s likely where I would have ended up – scared. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still scared but this is the manageable fear I want to lean into rather than debilitating fear shutting meContinue reading “Boyfriend – Introductions”
Poetry Series – Change
Self-awareness doesn’t always come easily. We have eyes that look outward, calling our attention to what is around us rather than within us. With phrases like “seeing is believing”, it makes it harder to trust what we know and observe about ourselves when we are busy seeing everyone but us. In an attempt to solveContinue reading “Poetry Series – Change”
Falling
Growth and learning aren’t linear. There are some basics we have to get down before we move on to the more complex lessons, challenges. This means from time to time it can look like chaos, jumping around from idea to idea, pulling in all of the related concepts. Later, further into your lessons, you’re goingContinue reading “Falling”
Poetry Series – Dark Figure
As I start to spiral, I’m never really sure if it was initiated from the outside or within. I’m too busy trying to stop the progression to pinpoint the exact source. Perhaps this seems problematic as if finding the source would let me solve the problem faster. Maybe that’s true but I can’t help butContinue reading “Poetry Series – Dark Figure”
The Way it Looked to Me – Pt 11 – Movies
I promised myself that I wouldn’t set aside my own comfort just to give in to that of others anymore. I’m not sure if the point in which that decision was made was a catalyst that started drawing those opportunities to the forefront like rapid-fire, ready to test my conviction, or if I simply becameContinue reading “The Way it Looked to Me – Pt 11 – Movies”
Poetry Series – Protector
January 2021, “I don’t regret ever trusting anyone” was cut out and carefully glued right atop the space my heart should sit in my picture on my vision board. In the moments that I find my body having a physiological reaction in response to someone, I pull that quote into the forefront of my mindContinue reading “Poetry Series – Protector”
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