There were a lot of times I found myself not trusting what my body was telling me. Clearly, that churning in my belly, the way my stomach is tying itself in knots speaks more to what’s wrong with me than the situation, right? This approach gave me my introduction to anger. If you stick withContinue reading “Poetry Series – Voice of Conscience”
Tag Archives: Growth
Poetry Series – Waves
It has been the kind of week that I didn’t think I would make it through without destroying my life. I often forget that there’s a power in pausing and allowing before reacting out of fear, based off of emotion. One of the hardest things about healing, for me, is learning when to trust thatContinue reading “Poetry Series – Waves”
Poetry Series – Psychic
As I continue to grow, I think one of the hardest things for me to accept is that sometimes our goodbyes are better done silently. There will be people that you have to let go of and wish well without ever actually getting your goodbye, your closure. Even harder still is knowing when to trustContinue reading “Poetry Series – Psychic”
Poetry Series – Tell Me Your Signs
My emotional intensity sometimes leaves growth and facing my fears feels like fighting literal demons. From the outside looking in, if I were transparent in those moments, I’m sure I’d look like I’m losing my mind. In those moments, I feel like I am just a little bit. I also believe, though, that I requireContinue reading “Poetry Series – Tell Me Your Signs”
Poetry series – The Matrix to My Umbel
The difference in perspectives captivates me. After all, how can you not be amazed that a simple object can vary so greatly just based on the view you take? What looks flush and level from a head-on view could be a series of pieces, held out from one central location, stemming out to create anContinue reading “Poetry series – The Matrix to My Umbel”
Even in my Weakness, I am Strong.
(Sensitive content/trigger warnings: abuse – sexual, mental/emotional/physical) I talk about general dysfunction in relationships far more than I gravitate toward the topic of abuse – whether it be physical, mental, or emotional. My immediate assumption was that I must have just gotten the most abusive relationships out of the way early and tackled those firstContinue reading “Even in my Weakness, I am Strong.”
Poetry Series – Love Language
At 28, I already feel like I’ve done a lifetime’s worth of explaining myself. Sometimes it was an attempt to clear up a misunderstanding and other’s a frivolous effort to finally be understood. It’s not always easy to accept that if you have to try that hard to be understood, you won’t be. If youContinue reading “Poetry Series – Love Language”
Braking
Picture a train barreling down the track at a conservative 100mph and think of the momentum it has and what it’s going to take to bring that bad boy to a halt. I am the train, just reaching full speed, as my body screams to me that we are going to need to slam onContinue reading “Braking”
Poetry Series – Best Friend
Each time someone that I found myself dating would tell me that they think of me as their best friend, I’d find myself puzzled. I couldn’t quite place what that would feel like which made it clear to me that I wasn’t thinking of them as the same. As this became a pattern, puzzled becameContinue reading “Poetry Series – Best Friend”
Poetry Series – Ex-plosions
I think maybe it was after my last relationship that went south, I confessed to Isaac that I felt silly and embarrassed at this point even acknowledging it when I date someone. What used to be months together before destruction now seems to only be weeks and I’m wondering if it’s me at this point.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Ex-plosions”