I wouldn’t call myself a commitment-phobe but had I let the issue go just a little bit longer without addressing it, that’s likely where I would have ended up – scared. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still scared but this is the manageable fear I want to lean into rather than debilitating fear shutting meContinue reading “Boyfriend – Introductions”
Tag Archives: Growth
Poetry Series – Change
Self-awareness doesn’t always come easily. We have eyes that look outward, calling our attention to what is around us rather than within us. With phrases like “seeing is believing”, it makes it harder to trust what we know and observe about ourselves when we are busy seeing everyone but us. In an attempt to solveContinue reading “Poetry Series – Change”
Falling
Growth and learning aren’t linear. There are some basics we have to get down before we move on to the more complex lessons, challenges. This means from time to time it can look like chaos, jumping around from idea to idea, pulling in all of the related concepts. Later, further into your lessons, you’re goingContinue reading “Falling”
Poetry Series – Dark Figure
As I start to spiral, I’m never really sure if it was initiated from the outside or within. I’m too busy trying to stop the progression to pinpoint the exact source. Perhaps this seems problematic as if finding the source would let me solve the problem faster. Maybe that’s true but I can’t help butContinue reading “Poetry Series – Dark Figure”
The Way it Looked to Me – Pt 11 – Movies
I promised myself that I wouldn’t set aside my own comfort just to give in to that of others anymore. I’m not sure if the point in which that decision was made was a catalyst that started drawing those opportunities to the forefront like rapid-fire, ready to test my conviction, or if I simply becameContinue reading “The Way it Looked to Me – Pt 11 – Movies”
Poetry Series – Protector
January 2021, “I don’t regret ever trusting anyone” was cut out and carefully glued right atop the space my heart should sit in my picture on my vision board. In the moments that I find my body having a physiological reaction in response to someone, I pull that quote into the forefront of my mindContinue reading “Poetry Series – Protector”
Sexuality
Some part of me insists on being ashamed that sex and my sexuality have played such a major role in my life. I wonder if it’s simply the fact that I’m a woman and our sexuality is hushed and muted unless it’s for someone else’s pleasure or perhaps it’s something more specific to me thanContinue reading “Sexuality”
The Way it Looked to Me- Pt 10 Jello Salad
They say that laughter is the best medicine. When a baby laughs, usually it’s enough to dose anyone within earshot. Baby laughs are always genuine, harmless. By the time school-age is reached, not all laughter feels good. The howls and giggles erupting around you when you’re the butt of a joke seem to be theContinue reading “The Way it Looked to Me- Pt 10 Jello Salad”
Poetry Series – Boyish
How often do you find yourself shifting focus based on new information? This doesn’t have to come in the form of anything major or groundbreaking. There are subtle messages we pick up as we go through our day-to-day life. Recently, listening to Untamed by Glennon Doyle, the idea of impermanence came up. The message wasContinue reading “Poetry Series – Boyish”
Unresponsive
Medical triage; when being trained to respond to disasters and mass casualty situations a system of colored tags is used to mark the victims. For a long time, I thought it was only red, yellow, and green tags. What this means is that there are people I should have marked with black tags long beforeContinue reading “Unresponsive”
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