In moments of darkness, there is nothing scarier than the happiness that now consumes my life the majority of the time. In some of my lowest moments, I’ve gone on rants about my desperate want not to want anything. At the time, I didn’t recognize it but the real fear is that in having, youContinue reading “Poetry Series – 38 Weeks Positive”
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Poetry Series – Plant Wisdom
I have this theory that our constant communication culture has led to a validation epidemic of problematic proportions. Call in the egos, they’re begging to be seen. Posting videos, status updates, and pictures that don’t even present the truth because they’re so focused on the ideal – just desperately hoping they will be seen… andContinue reading “Poetry Series – Plant Wisdom”
Poetry Series – Barred
I didn’t always have much self respect. I think that’s the reason now that people that had known me back then think I’m arrogant. It’s quite the contrast to grow respect and confidence where you once were a mat. But seeing my worth helps me see all of the situations I still naively agree too,Continue reading “Poetry Series – Barred”
Poetry Series – PTSD
Not everyone out there, watching your moves is doing it so that they can root for you. See, it’s been brought to my awareness that some of my readers might be creeps, going through my posts just to keep tabs on me. I’d like to say that I’ve flattered that I take up that muchContinue reading “Poetry Series – PTSD”
Poetry Series – Money
I wonder if some topics are as difficult for everyone as they are for me? Maybe it’s one of those things that if you’ve had enough exposure to something, you become desensitized to it. Maybe the problem is that I haven’t seen enough money – I never grew up that kind of rich. Money MoneyContinue reading “Poetry Series – Money”
Poetry Series – Hateful, Call me Ungrateful
It’s not always easy to stop from taking my feelings out on those closest to me. In the same way that children throw tantrums with the people they are the most comfortable around, knowing they’re safe and loved through them, I have this natural inclination to push the limits of just how much I canContinue reading “Poetry Series – Hateful, Call me Ungrateful”
Poetry Series – Mental Abuse
I attended a poetry slam for the first time last week and I never thought it would feel so refreshing to watch other people purge themselves of the weight the world has piled on them. I went to a poetry slam for the first time last week and I think I expected to find aContinue reading “Poetry Series – Mental Abuse”
Poetry Series – An Apology
I’ve never fallen so hard in love as I did after I learned that I can love myself, too. For the longest time, every new person I’d meet, I’d drop my old self and try them on, hoping for a better fit. It took me years, decades of my life to realize that it neverContinue reading “Poetry Series – An Apology”
Poetry Series – Flat Tire
Flat Tire I watch the tire shrink to the ground as I prepare my argument for how, in this moment, I am the more deflated of the two of us.As I watch it melt against the pavement, I catch a leaf falling out of the corner of my eye and for a moment, the urgeContinue reading “Poetry Series – Flat Tire”
Poetry Series – Growth, Self Observed
The continued desire to receive external validation for the things that I’m already proud of makes my stomach churn but no matter how sick I get, my body still can’t seem to purge itself of that itch. In these moments of self-disgust, I try to soften and remind myself that it’s natural to look toContinue reading “Poetry Series – Growth, Self Observed”