Tag Archives: healing

Poetry Series – Shame

I keep promising myself no judgment but it’s hard when I watch my over-ambitious plans be patched together and then come crumbling apart as soon as they get close. Sometimes it’s situational, out of my control, but sometimes I’m backing out, feeling out of control. I promised myself a conversation this week, it didn’t happen.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Shame”

Poetry Series – Laundry Dilemma

I find it nearly impossible, often, to admit to what I’m feeling or thinking. No matter how much of myself I put on display, I still circle back and find myself embarrassed by the parts that aren’t yet out. It’s almost as if this disturbingly difficult journey has been just a little bit too easyContinue reading “Poetry Series – Laundry Dilemma”

Poetry Series – Outside Will

I had listened to enough outside influences for so long that I remember telling my therapist one day that I had no idea who I even was. It felt pathetic but like it was the truest thing I could say at the moment. Sometimes, I still surprise myself but overall I know myself well enoughContinue reading “Poetry Series – Outside Will”

Poetry Series – Sometimes, Have I felt

I feel like sometimes I just need to keep pushing a little bit further and I’ll make it. I’m not sure what I’m trying to make it to and quite frankly, it doesn’t matter. The belief that I’ll make it there is enough to get me to the next moment, to take the next step,Continue reading “Poetry Series – Sometimes, Have I felt”

Poetry Series – Falling Back

I’m hoping that if I throw out into the void, often enough, that sometimes I just see things when I close my eyes, hear things amongst the quiet, feel things when I’m alone, know things before I’m told, maybe someone will say hey, me too. I was in the middle of another poem, trying toContinue reading “Poetry Series – Falling Back”

Poetry Series – Turning Corners

I haven’t seen my therapist in about 3 and a half months now. I’m not saying that as either good or bad, simply a fact. Some days I miss her terribly, is that weird? Does it get any less weird if I tell you it’s because after 6 years working with her I finally workedContinue reading “Poetry Series – Turning Corners”

Poetry Series – Decay

We say dramatic like it’s a bad thing. I believe that drama has its place, as does everything. Please don’t pull drama from outside of our current situation, our present state, in hopes of making things a bit more exciting. Tune in, become present, and lean into your own dramatic reaction. Sometimes drama is nothingContinue reading “Poetry Series – Decay”

Poetry Series – Adult

The other day, I spent some time sitting in my dad’s truck talking to him about creating, art, and different projects we were working on. He was there so I could sell him a gift card because my only what’s for me approach to life means sometimes I’m piecing things together day by day asContinue reading “Poetry Series – Adult”

Complaint Box

I spend enough time quietly, observing, that sometimes people are caught off guard when they discover just how loud and outgoing I can be. The thing is, I believe we can learn far more from listening than we can from speaking and I think the silence in between leaves room for the truth to seepContinue reading “Complaint Box”

Poetry Series – Purge

I think the saddest part of our healing journey can often be seeing that while we felt everyone else was out to get us, we were really inflicting the most harm towards ourselves. I’m still working on forgiving myself for some of the pain I’ve endured as a result of my own hand but owningContinue reading “Poetry Series – Purge”