Poetry Series – The Fool

Over the weekend, I encountered the first time I had to find the courage to voice to my relatively new boyfriend that something he said had upset me. Sure, I’ve had similar encounters with others but after getting enough bad reactions I took on the idea that it would be easier to just swallow theContinue reading “Poetry Series – The Fool”

Poetry Series – Tell Me Your Signs

My emotional intensity sometimes leaves growth and facing my fears feels like fighting literal demons. From the outside looking in, if I were transparent in those moments, I’m sure I’d look like I’m losing my mind. In those moments, I feel like I am just a little bit. I also believe, though, that I requireContinue reading “Poetry Series – Tell Me Your Signs”

Poetry Series – Laughter

I long thought I needed someone to help calm, help balance, the wildness raging inside of me. If only I could find someone stable enough to tone me down to a reasonable volume, yet I’d scream the moment they tried to mute me. It turns out all of this time, the only thing I reallyContinue reading “Poetry Series – Laughter”

Poetry series – The Matrix to My Umbel

The difference in perspectives captivates me. After all, how can you not be amazed that a simple object can vary so greatly just based on the view you take? What looks flush and level from a head-on view could be a series of pieces, held out from one central location, stemming out to create anContinue reading “Poetry series – The Matrix to My Umbel”

Even in my Weakness, I am Strong.

(Sensitive content/trigger warnings: abuse – sexual, mental/emotional/physical) I talk about general dysfunction in relationships far more than I gravitate toward the topic of abuse – whether it be physical, mental, or emotional. My immediate assumption was that I must have just gotten the most abusive relationships out of the way early and tackled those firstContinue reading “Even in my Weakness, I am Strong.”

Poetry Series – Storm

Do you ever stop and think about the way the song you just love was really written about some person out there that you’ll never know? It wasn’t a factor I had necessarily considered until I started writing about people I know, realizing that whoever reads this likely won’t. Honestly, it’s one of my favoriteContinue reading “Poetry Series – Storm”

Poetry Series – Love Language

At 28, I already feel like I’ve done a lifetime’s worth of explaining myself. Sometimes it was an attempt to clear up a misunderstanding and other’s a frivolous effort to finally be understood. It’s not always easy to accept that if you have to try that hard to be understood, you won’t be. If youContinue reading “Poetry Series – Love Language”

Braking

Picture a train barreling down the track at a conservative 100mph and think of the momentum it has and what it’s going to take to bring that bad boy to a halt. I am the train, just reaching full speed, as my body screams to me that we are going to need to slam onContinue reading “Braking”

Poetry Series – Best Friend

Each time someone that I found myself dating would tell me that they think of me as their best friend, I’d find myself puzzled. I couldn’t quite place what that would feel like which made it clear to me that I wasn’t thinking of them as the same. As this became a pattern, puzzled becameContinue reading “Poetry Series – Best Friend”

Oh, So This is Why People Love Their Uncles.

Family dynamics have always confused me more than I tend to let on. Honestly, there are a lot of basic things that leave me puzzled in similar ways. In moments of dissociation, I leave myself feeling even crazier as I recall all of these things and ask why I’m so caught off guard by simpleContinue reading “Oh, So This is Why People Love Their Uncles.”