I get tired of going through life alone but trying to factor someone into the equation gets challenging. It’s like the switch to letters from numbers in math. Your knee-jerk reaction is that they must be out of place. The equation is off now. I’m trying to remind myself, daily, hourly, every fucking minute… I’mContinue reading “Poetry Series – Hurting Promises”
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Poetry Series – Spontaneity at the Ready
What does it feel like when you get good at observing life as it passes? How do you know when your reactions have leveled out? What intensity is an acceptable one and how do we achieve just that but nothing more? I burst into tears at some of the weirdest things over the last twoContinue reading “Poetry Series – Spontaneity at the Ready”
Poetry Series – Far Away
Sometimes it’s the simple things that I’m the proudest of. There was a time when I would second guess myself a lot, and talk myself out of things. That doesn’t mean that it never happens now but I don’t feel the urge to pounce without thinking, out of fear that I can’t trust my thoughts.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Far Away”
Poetry Series – Uncomfortable Encounter
My favorite days to write are the ones where everything feels like fair game. I don’t want to apologize for who I am or what I’ve experienced and I certainly don’t want to hold back the words begging to erupt from my mouth. I should be doing laundry, the clothes won’t wash themselves. But theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Uncomfortable Encounter”
Poetry Series – Don’t Go Back
I can’t shake the feeling that I’ve left people behind. Some of them I keep finding myself wanting to go back for, worried that I didn’t leave a clear path for them to follow. I get into these moods of letting go, clearing out, but then I wonder if I didn’t give something enough thoughtContinue reading “Poetry Series – Don’t Go Back”
Poetry Series – Bodily Betrayal
I am far from ready to talk about it, so I’m going to write about it. My body betrayed me and it’s almost as if it had to make sure that I knew. I get it, that sounds like paranoia, a disorder of some sort. Your body doesn’t have a mind of its own. ButContinue reading “Poetry Series – Bodily Betrayal”
Poetry Series – Marriage
Marriage my dad used to tell me I was his princessonce told me he wanted to make me a tiarasomeday, he’d give me away, want me to wear itIt sounds, or feels, silly to admit as an adultbut I miss my dad calling me his princesseven though I told him no –no tiara, no givingContinue reading “Poetry Series – Marriage”
Poetry Series – I See Same
I didn’t want to go to the bar on Friday night but I went. I never voiced that I didn’t want to go because I didn’t want to be at home either. Sometimes I just want to feel a sense of control, to be the one making the call. Sometimes we don’t yet know whyContinue reading “Poetry Series – I See Same”
Poetry Series – Weekend Falling
Life isn’t meant to be easy, only simple. We aren’t meant to make it through unscathed but with stories and lessons. The people that you’re meant to keep around won’t make you feel bad for being who you really* are. If you never have to tell someone that you’re upset, hurt, or “no” in theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Weekend Falling”
Poetry Series – Stories
Everywhere I look, I see the things I asked for. Life feels the most whole it has ever felt even when I’m shattering. Everyone gives me something and I only hope that I’m returning the favor, love the confirmation when I do. I’m trying to remind myself, continually, to not get swept back into theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Stories”