I am far from ready to talk about it, so I’m going to write about it. My body betrayed me and it’s almost as if it had to make sure that I knew. I get it, that sounds like paranoia, a disorder of some sort. Your body doesn’t have a mind of its own. ButContinue reading “Poetry Series – Bodily Betrayal”
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Poetry Series – I See Same
I didn’t want to go to the bar on Friday night but I went. I never voiced that I didn’t want to go because I didn’t want to be at home either. Sometimes I just want to feel a sense of control, to be the one making the call. Sometimes we don’t yet know whyContinue reading “Poetry Series – I See Same”
Poetry Series – Feelings
Sometimes I wonder if I’m being too harsh. I have this tendency to pendulum from one extreme to the next as I seek out balance. I went without boundaries for so long that sometimes I set the shock of my electric fence too strong, arrowed innocent bystanders out of fear of them being enemies, buildContinue reading “Poetry Series – Feelings”
Poetry Series – Three Twenty
I’ve been more inconsistent here than I’d like to be but I’m releasing judgment on the fact that I started a new job a week ago, had a chaotic week before that, and am finding the time when I can. I’m releasing myself from writing as an obligation and allowing that writing is what IContinue reading “Poetry Series – Three Twenty”
Perspective on Mental Illness
I came across this today during my mindless scrolling on Facebook and perhaps this is an attempt to give meaning to my scrolling, justify it, or perhaps someone somewhere needs this. I did, once. Another perspective to consider: Everyone is fighting their own battles. People may not mean* to make ‘mentally ill’ people feel badContinue reading “Perspective on Mental Illness”
Poetry Series – Infinite
My favorite things to hear will always be things that someone hesitates to say before finally confessing. There is something beautiful about knowing something is a risk and leaning into it anyways. I love being a witness, being on the receiving end, of those moments. I think the most magical thing we can do isContinue reading “Poetry Series – Infinite”
Poetry Series – Scars
Sometimes I have doubts about my compatibility with people, ongoing. I’m continually returning to relationships, experiences, revisiting the question of, for me? I had the same best friend since high school and recently I wondered if we started going down different paths, I faced fear of loss something serious. When I fell in love, caughtContinue reading “Poetry Series – Scars”
Poetry Series – Mr.RedLight
I was in the passenger’s seat of the car, acknowledging to my boyfriend that I had made a pen pal with an inmate in the past and he asked me if I had fallen in love with the dude. I said no, and for the question he was asking it was absolutely true, I fellContinue reading “Poetry Series – Mr.RedLight”
Poetry Series – Ready
I’ve spent my whole life scared and I wouldn’t be surprised if that trend continues. The difference between my current fear and my past fear is that I’ve learned how, presently, to keep it from stopping me more often than not. Sometimes working up courage takes 3 days and pulling on every experience of whenContinue reading “Poetry Series – Ready”
Poetry Series – Laundry Dilemma
I find it nearly impossible, often, to admit to what I’m feeling or thinking. No matter how much of myself I put on display, I still circle back and find myself embarrassed by the parts that aren’t yet out. It’s almost as if this disturbingly difficult journey has been just a little bit too easyContinue reading “Poetry Series – Laundry Dilemma”
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