I’ve been having a hard time accepting that I can have let myself down in the past AND show up for myself in the future. For someone who so desperately believes that people can change.. I haven’t done great at offering myself the grace and space to do so. So cheers to coexisting – causeContinue reading “Poetry Series – Two, Coexist”
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Poetry Series – Dreamscapes
My greatest journey in life has been remembering how to consistently be myself, consistently love. It’s still a work in progress but, I’m finally letting my weird be weird to the people who find it weird without feeling the need to suppress it. Dreamscapes The bathrooms are finally clean, I can go in them –Continue reading “Poetry Series – Dreamscapes”
Poetry Series – Savoring Sexuality
I went through a lot to get to where I am sexually. I’m not even talking about a lot of sexual activity, but I’d be lying if I said there weren’t phases where that’s how I tackled the “getting through”. What I mean is, there was a point in time when I realized I hadContinue reading “Poetry Series – Savoring Sexuality”
Poetry Series – Escape Artist
I used to think that the place there was the most love was the one where I felt safe lashing out, throwing fits, taking my anger out, and then turning around and apologizing when I was done. I have a hard time accepting that I thought that’s what love was but then I remind myselfContinue reading “Poetry Series – Escape Artist”
Poetry Series – Mixed Up Emotions
Sometimes I feel guilty for just how much I enjoy spending time alone, even away from my partner, but the truth is it’s the only way I have right now to clear out the noise and get in touch with myself. I didn’t realize until last week that I keep getting sick at family partiesContinue reading “Poetry Series – Mixed Up Emotions”
Poetry Series – Hello, Demons
I had to leave my boyfriend a 5-page letter explaining that I’m having a hard time, don’t know how to be open about it and how he can help “de-escalate” me when I’m withdrawing and disassociating. Okay, I didn’t HAVE to but I either needed to do it or I was going to self-sabotage theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Hello, Demons”
Poetry Series – Decay
We say dramatic like it’s a bad thing. I believe that drama has its place, as does everything. Please don’t pull drama from outside of our current situation, our present state, in hopes of making things a bit more exciting. Tune in, become present, and lean into your own dramatic reaction. Sometimes drama is nothingContinue reading “Poetry Series – Decay”
Poetry Series – Looking Back
The power of shifting to letting go of what others think of you is that your peace is no longer dependent on them accepting your explanation of yourself. Sure, I got commended on my levels of self-awareness and yes, that skill absolutely comes in handy now. The thing is, I didn’t always need to letContinue reading “Poetry Series – Looking Back”
Oh, So This is Why People Love Their Uncles.
Family dynamics have always confused me more than I tend to let on. Honestly, there are a lot of basic things that leave me puzzled in similar ways. In moments of dissociation, I leave myself feeling even crazier as I recall all of these things and ask why I’m so caught off guard by simpleContinue reading “Oh, So This is Why People Love Their Uncles.”
Driving
“Women are bad drivers. I hate to say it, sounds sexist, but they are.” We teach our children from a very early age to look to the outside to figure out what to do. Sure, we can say this is how learning happens. You have to pick things up from somewhere, right? Not everything needsContinue reading “Driving”
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