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Poetry Series – Shame

I keep promising myself no judgment but it’s hard when I watch my over-ambitious plans be patched together and then come crumbling apart as soon as they get close. Sometimes it’s situational, out of my control, but sometimes I’m backing out, feeling out of control. I promised myself a conversation this week, it didn’t happen.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Shame”

Poetry Series – Laundry Dilemma

I find it nearly impossible, often, to admit to what I’m feeling or thinking. No matter how much of myself I put on display, I still circle back and find myself embarrassed by the parts that aren’t yet out. It’s almost as if this disturbingly difficult journey has been just a little bit too easyContinue reading “Poetry Series – Laundry Dilemma”

Poetry Series – Outside Will

I had listened to enough outside influences for so long that I remember telling my therapist one day that I had no idea who I even was. It felt pathetic but like it was the truest thing I could say at the moment. Sometimes, I still surprise myself but overall I know myself well enoughContinue reading “Poetry Series – Outside Will”

Poetry Series – Love Protest

I read an article that said bulimia can be formed as a result of unhealthy attachments to a mother’s love, rooted all the way back in the nursing stage of development. I’m absolutely buying it. The idea is that the toxicity of the milk, caused by ill-thought and negative feelings, can create a disconnect inContinue reading “Poetry Series – Love Protest”

Poetry Series – Sometimes, Have I felt

I feel like sometimes I just need to keep pushing a little bit further and I’ll make it. I’m not sure what I’m trying to make it to and quite frankly, it doesn’t matter. The belief that I’ll make it there is enough to get me to the next moment, to take the next step,Continue reading “Poetry Series – Sometimes, Have I felt”

Poetry Series – Confessions

I’m more than in the mood to sit down and give my demons names and faces. They’ve been around an awful lot lately – some people just seem to surface them. If your default reaction is to encourage someone to stay away from the people that pull their darkness to the surface, I encourage youContinue reading “Poetry Series – Confessions”

Poetry Series – Falling Back

I’m hoping that if I throw out into the void, often enough, that sometimes I just see things when I close my eyes, hear things amongst the quiet, feel things when I’m alone, know things before I’m told, maybe someone will say hey, me too. I was in the middle of another poem, trying toContinue reading “Poetry Series – Falling Back”

Poetry Series – Turning Corners

I haven’t seen my therapist in about 3 and a half months now. I’m not saying that as either good or bad, simply a fact. Some days I miss her terribly, is that weird? Does it get any less weird if I tell you it’s because after 6 years working with her I finally workedContinue reading “Poetry Series – Turning Corners”

Poetry Series – Decay

We say dramatic like it’s a bad thing. I believe that drama has its place, as does everything. Please don’t pull drama from outside of our current situation, our present state, in hopes of making things a bit more exciting. Tune in, become present, and lean into your own dramatic reaction. Sometimes drama is nothingContinue reading “Poetry Series – Decay”

Poetry Series – Observation

For a long time, I refused to be around anyone when I started to spiral. Maybe calling it a spiral sounds back but that’s likely because it’s associated with downward rather than revisiting. I’ve been spiraling for about 8 days now, upward and learning but spiraling nonetheless. I considered closing myself off from absolutely everyoneContinue reading “Poetry Series – Observation”