Do you ever notice the subtle way our wants are filtered through our beliefs first? Have you ever caught yourself wanting something only to immediately find lists of reasons that you just can’t have whatever it is? Why do we so often believe ourselves undeserving of what would make us the happiest, most fulfilled? IContinue reading “Poetry Series – Facing Want”
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Poetry Series – Mixed Up Emotions
Sometimes I feel guilty for just how much I enjoy spending time alone, even away from my partner, but the truth is it’s the only way I have right now to clear out the noise and get in touch with myself. I didn’t realize until last week that I keep getting sick at family partiesContinue reading “Poetry Series – Mixed Up Emotions”
Poetry Series – Give Up Itch
I’ve been giving in a lot more than I’d like to admit. Honestly, it’s why I know I have to have patience with the situations I’m in, the information I’m discovering. People are rarely as perfect as they seem and if we hold them to those expectations, they’ll explode at the seams. Sometimes I’m theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Give Up Itch”
Poetry Series – Thank You, Love
I’m still learning how to let myself be loved. I know we’re all born with the ability, such a super-power, but so many of us lose it along the way. I’m working on recovering my powers. I think of my relationships as rehab for the soul. I’ve let a lot of people love me inContinue reading “Poetry Series – Thank You, Love”
Poetry Series – Warm Death
I find it comical in so many ways that I still ever have the nerve to say I actively practice letting go. Take a look at the last decade of personal relationships and you’ll catch this pattern of detaching but never really letting go. Stay just present enough to be relevant in their life, theirContinue reading “Poetry Series – Warm Death”
Poetry Series – Hello, Demons
I had to leave my boyfriend a 5-page letter explaining that I’m having a hard time, don’t know how to be open about it and how he can help “de-escalate” me when I’m withdrawing and disassociating. Okay, I didn’t HAVE to but I either needed to do it or I was going to self-sabotage theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Hello, Demons”
Relation-ship
In relation to a ship, I’m ready to jump, always. I’m used to the flow of not knowing what to expect. The water will pull me to the next place as long as I’m not tethered to this structure. I hear structure is good, though. I hear we need stability in our life. Coach. CoachContinue reading “Relation-ship”
Poetry Series – Sacral Blocks
I have the hardest time telling people that I plan to take care of myself. I’ve gotten to the point where I can do it when I’m alone but in the company of others, sometimes it feels like an inconvenience. Sometimes, taking care of myself makes me feel like I’m less fun, not cool. Always,Continue reading “Poetry Series – Sacral Blocks”
Poetry Series – Hurting Promises
I get tired of going through life alone but trying to factor someone into the equation gets challenging. It’s like the switch to letters from numbers in math. Your knee-jerk reaction is that they must be out of place. The equation is off now. I’m trying to remind myself, daily, hourly, every fucking minute… I’mContinue reading “Poetry Series – Hurting Promises”
Poetry Series – Far Away
Sometimes it’s the simple things that I’m the proudest of. There was a time when I would second guess myself a lot, and talk myself out of things. That doesn’t mean that it never happens now but I don’t feel the urge to pounce without thinking, out of fear that I can’t trust my thoughts.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Far Away”
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