I find it comical in so many ways that I still ever have the nerve to say I actively practice letting go. Take a look at the last decade of personal relationships and you’ll catch this pattern of detaching but never really letting go. Stay just present enough to be relevant in their life, theirContinue reading “Poetry Series – Warm Death”
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Poetry Series – Hello, Demons
I had to leave my boyfriend a 5-page letter explaining that I’m having a hard time, don’t know how to be open about it and how he can help “de-escalate” me when I’m withdrawing and disassociating. Okay, I didn’t HAVE to but I either needed to do it or I was going to self-sabotage theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Hello, Demons”
Relation-ship
In relation to a ship, I’m ready to jump, always. I’m used to the flow of not knowing what to expect. The water will pull me to the next place as long as I’m not tethered to this structure. I hear structure is good, though. I hear we need stability in our life. Coach. CoachContinue reading “Relation-ship”
Poetry Series – Sacral Blocks
I have the hardest time telling people that I plan to take care of myself. I’ve gotten to the point where I can do it when I’m alone but in the company of others, sometimes it feels like an inconvenience. Sometimes, taking care of myself makes me feel like I’m less fun, not cool. Always,Continue reading “Poetry Series – Sacral Blocks”
Poetry Series – Hurting Promises
I get tired of going through life alone but trying to factor someone into the equation gets challenging. It’s like the switch to letters from numbers in math. Your knee-jerk reaction is that they must be out of place. The equation is off now. I’m trying to remind myself, daily, hourly, every fucking minute… I’mContinue reading “Poetry Series – Hurting Promises”
Poetry Series – Far Away
Sometimes it’s the simple things that I’m the proudest of. There was a time when I would second guess myself a lot, and talk myself out of things. That doesn’t mean that it never happens now but I don’t feel the urge to pounce without thinking, out of fear that I can’t trust my thoughts.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Far Away”
Poetry Series – Marriage
Marriage my dad used to tell me I was his princessonce told me he wanted to make me a tiarasomeday, he’d give me away, want me to wear itIt sounds, or feels, silly to admit as an adultbut I miss my dad calling me his princesseven though I told him no –no tiara, no givingContinue reading “Poetry Series – Marriage”
Poetry Series – Crag
Sometimes the people we think will never hurt us have been standing by watching us self-destruct all along, adding fuel to the fire. I don’t think they mean to. They may have even been trying to contain the explosion. Think about trying to put a grease fire out with water but don’t actually try it.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Crag”
Poetry Series – Love Language
At 28, I already feel like I’ve done a lifetime’s worth of explaining myself. Sometimes it was an attempt to clear up a misunderstanding and other’s a frivolous effort to finally be understood. It’s not always easy to accept that if you have to try that hard to be understood, you won’t be. If youContinue reading “Poetry Series – Love Language”
Poetry Series – Best Friend
Each time someone that I found myself dating would tell me that they think of me as their best friend, I’d find myself puzzled. I couldn’t quite place what that would feel like which made it clear to me that I wasn’t thinking of them as the same. As this became a pattern, puzzled becameContinue reading “Poetry Series – Best Friend”
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