When we try to be with the wrong people we start believing a false narrative about ourselves when things don’t work out. I thought I was hard to love, not open enough with my love, difficult to be around, too emotional, overly sexual, too distant, too aggressive. I tried changing everything about myself only toContinue reading “Poetry Series – Simply, In Love”
Tag Archives: Self Acceptance
Poetry Series – Sacral Blocks
I have the hardest time telling people that I plan to take care of myself. I’ve gotten to the point where I can do it when I’m alone but in the company of others, sometimes it feels like an inconvenience. Sometimes, taking care of myself makes me feel like I’m less fun, not cool. Always,Continue reading “Poetry Series – Sacral Blocks”
Poetry Series – Hurting Promises
I get tired of going through life alone but trying to factor someone into the equation gets challenging. It’s like the switch to letters from numbers in math. Your knee-jerk reaction is that they must be out of place. The equation is off now. I’m trying to remind myself, daily, hourly, every fucking minute… I’mContinue reading “Poetry Series – Hurting Promises”
Perspective on Mental Illness
I came across this today during my mindless scrolling on Facebook and perhaps this is an attempt to give meaning to my scrolling, justify it, or perhaps someone somewhere needs this. I did, once. Another perspective to consider: Everyone is fighting their own battles. People may not mean* to make ‘mentally ill’ people feel badContinue reading “Perspective on Mental Illness”
Poetry Series – Mr.RedLight
I was in the passenger’s seat of the car, acknowledging to my boyfriend that I had made a pen pal with an inmate in the past and he asked me if I had fallen in love with the dude. I said no, and for the question he was asking it was absolutely true, I fellContinue reading “Poetry Series – Mr.RedLight”
Poetry Series – Ready
I’ve spent my whole life scared and I wouldn’t be surprised if that trend continues. The difference between my current fear and my past fear is that I’ve learned how, presently, to keep it from stopping me more often than not. Sometimes working up courage takes 3 days and pulling on every experience of whenContinue reading “Poetry Series – Ready”
Poetry Series – Perfectly Lost
I love to explore the dark but my preference is for going it solo. My shell often contrasts whatever is happening beneath the surface, for the sake of the audience – we’re striving for balance here. It’s not a hard rule but generally, the more makeup I have on, the more presentable I look, theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Perfectly Lost”
Poetry Series – Laundry Dilemma
I find it nearly impossible, often, to admit to what I’m feeling or thinking. No matter how much of myself I put on display, I still circle back and find myself embarrassed by the parts that aren’t yet out. It’s almost as if this disturbingly difficult journey has been just a little bit too easyContinue reading “Poetry Series – Laundry Dilemma”
Poetry Series – Falling Back
I’m hoping that if I throw out into the void, often enough, that sometimes I just see things when I close my eyes, hear things amongst the quiet, feel things when I’m alone, know things before I’m told, maybe someone will say hey, me too. I was in the middle of another poem, trying toContinue reading “Poetry Series – Falling Back”
Poetry Series – Turning Corners
I haven’t seen my therapist in about 3 and a half months now. I’m not saying that as either good or bad, simply a fact. Some days I miss her terribly, is that weird? Does it get any less weird if I tell you it’s because after 6 years working with her I finally workedContinue reading “Poetry Series – Turning Corners”
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