Poetry Series – Controversy

When you start sharing your truth, the people that have wronged you will inevitably protest. We grow in a society where it’s encouraged to hide all of your greatest wrongs, biggest flaws, lest you be judged for them. One of the biggest wrongs I’ve committed, at least to myself, was tiptoeing around people so oftenContinue reading “Poetry Series – Controversy”

Poetry Series – Endless Questions

I give up and try again at least half a dozen times a day. It may not be over the same thing but it’s with the same amount of certainty, both in the need to quit and the need to keep going. I wonder if I keep getting pulled, tug-a-warred back and forth in bothContinue reading “Poetry Series – Endless Questions”

Braking

Picture a train barreling down the track at a conservative 100mph and think of the momentum it has and what it’s going to take to bring that bad boy to a halt. I am the train, just reaching full speed, as my body screams to me that we are going to need to slam onContinue reading “Braking”

Oh, So This is Why People Love Their Uncles.

Family dynamics have always confused me more than I tend to let on. Honestly, there are a lot of basic things that leave me puzzled in similar ways. In moments of dissociation, I leave myself feeling even crazier as I recall all of these things and ask why I’m so caught off guard by simpleContinue reading “Oh, So This is Why People Love Their Uncles.”

Boyfriend – Introductions

I wouldn’t call myself a commitment-phobe but had I let the issue go just a little bit longer without addressing it, that’s likely where I would have ended up – scared. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still scared but this is the manageable fear I want to lean into rather than debilitating fear shutting meContinue reading “Boyfriend – Introductions”

Poetry Series – Change

Self-awareness doesn’t always come easily. We have eyes that look outward, calling our attention to what is around us rather than within us. With phrases like “seeing is believing”, it makes it harder to trust what we know and observe about ourselves when we are busy seeing everyone but us. In an attempt to solveContinue reading “Poetry Series – Change”

Falling

Growth and learning aren’t linear. There are some basics we have to get down before we move on to the more complex lessons, challenges. This means from time to time it can look like chaos, jumping around from idea to idea, pulling in all of the related concepts. Later, further into your lessons, you’re goingContinue reading “Falling”

Poetry Series – Dark Figure

As I start to spiral, I’m never really sure if it was initiated from the outside or within. I’m too busy trying to stop the progression to pinpoint the exact source. Perhaps this seems problematic as if finding the source would let me solve the problem faster. Maybe that’s true but I can’t help butContinue reading “Poetry Series – Dark Figure”

Grow-up

I think it’s safe to say that we all remember thinking that one day we were going to wake up and finally feel like things were in place – like we’ve finally figured out how to do it right. I’ve heard a lot of people mark 30 that age and that’s a hard one forContinue reading “Grow-up”

Unresponsive

Medical triage; when being trained to respond to disasters and mass casualty situations a system of colored tags is used to mark the victims. For a long time, I thought it was only red, yellow, and green tags. What this means is that there are people I should have marked with black tags long beforeContinue reading “Unresponsive”