There’s irony in writing a poem about rifling through old feelings as I’m sitting here trying to work my way through past, repressed, feelings. I hang onto the idea that there’s a difference between finally feeling what you’ve never actually felt and indulging in memories to escape from the present. Old Self I thought IContinue reading “Poetry Series – Old Self”
Tag Archives: Self Discovery
Poetry Series – Facing Want
Do you ever notice the subtle way our wants are filtered through our beliefs first? Have you ever caught yourself wanting something only to immediately find lists of reasons that you just can’t have whatever it is? Why do we so often believe ourselves undeserving of what would make us the happiest, most fulfilled? IContinue reading “Poetry Series – Facing Want”
Poetry Series – Lightning
A psychiatrist once explained to me that when you’re having trouble falling back asleep, one of the worst things you can do is stay in bed tossing and turning. Get up, make a cup of tea, read a book, stretch. Whatever you do, don’t lay in bed and let your mind fester. After a littleContinue reading “Poetry Series – Lightning”
Poetry Series – Give Up Itch
I’ve been giving in a lot more than I’d like to admit. Honestly, it’s why I know I have to have patience with the situations I’m in, the information I’m discovering. People are rarely as perfect as they seem and if we hold them to those expectations, they’ll explode at the seams. Sometimes I’m theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Give Up Itch”
Poetry Series – Window Diver
Do you wonder if people think the same unspeakable things that you do? I do. Both wonder and also probably think them. Maybe not exactly but I think we all think thoughts of a horrifying nature – the ones so bad you keep them tucked away, demonizing yourself because how could you think that, it’sContinue reading “Poetry Series – Window Diver”
Poetry Series – Hello, Demons
I had to leave my boyfriend a 5-page letter explaining that I’m having a hard time, don’t know how to be open about it and how he can help “de-escalate” me when I’m withdrawing and disassociating. Okay, I didn’t HAVE to but I either needed to do it or I was going to self-sabotage theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Hello, Demons”
Poetry Series – Sarah
I’ve reached a point where I’m halted. There’s this brick wall of shame, guilt, and fear that I desperately need to smash down. Shame is connected to who we are, guilt is connected to what we do, and fear is connected to what’s to come. Brick by brick, confession by confession, taking the time toContinue reading “Poetry Series – Sarah”
Relation-ship
In relation to a ship, I’m ready to jump, always. I’m used to the flow of not knowing what to expect. The water will pull me to the next place as long as I’m not tethered to this structure. I hear structure is good, though. I hear we need stability in our life. Coach. CoachContinue reading “Relation-ship”
Faces
The faces in the reflections are never the same faces as in the trees, clouds, leaves. The faces in the reflections are always looking back, looking at me, emotion heavily present across their face but the faces aren’t me. Reflections aren’t just for mirrors. I see them in the windows, on the shiny surface ofContinue reading “Faces”
Poetry Series – What do you want from me?
I haven’t been the most productive person, and I’m sure I haven’t even been the most present, but my presence in the moment is magnitudes more frequent than it’s been in as long as i can remember. For me, this is an achievement. For me, this is what matters in life. I’m sitting on theContinue reading “Poetry Series – What do you want from me?”
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