Poetry Series – Carried Off

I think I’m getting better and better at staying consistent, handling life, and then something throws me for a loop. I desperately need a moment to catch my breath. I can feel myself closing off again, pulling away. I’m trying to remember that we can’t all back out. I made my entrance and I haveContinue reading “Poetry Series – Carried Off”

Poetry Series – Marriage

Marriage my dad used to tell me I was his princessonce told me he wanted to make me a tiarasomeday, he’d give me away, want me to wear itIt sounds, or feels, silly to admit as an adultbut I miss my dad calling me his princesseven though I told him no –no tiara, no givingContinue reading “Poetry Series – Marriage”

Poetry Series – I See Same

I didn’t want to go to the bar on Friday night but I went. I never voiced that I didn’t want to go because I didn’t want to be at home either. Sometimes I just want to feel a sense of control, to be the one making the call. Sometimes we don’t yet know whyContinue reading “Poetry Series – I See Same”

Poetry Series – Stories

Everywhere I look, I see the things I asked for. Life feels the most whole it has ever felt even when I’m shattering. Everyone gives me something and I only hope that I’m returning the favor, love the confirmation when I do. I’m trying to remind myself, continually, to not get swept back into theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Stories”

Poetry Series – Feelings

Sometimes I wonder if I’m being too harsh. I have this tendency to pendulum from one extreme to the next as I seek out balance. I went without boundaries for so long that sometimes I set the shock of my electric fence too strong, arrowed innocent bystanders out of fear of them being enemies, buildContinue reading “Poetry Series – Feelings”

Poetry Series – Three Twenty

I’ve been more inconsistent here than I’d like to be but I’m releasing judgment on the fact that I started a new job a week ago, had a chaotic week before that, and am finding the time when I can. I’m releasing myself from writing as an obligation and allowing that writing is what IContinue reading “Poetry Series – Three Twenty”

Poetry Series – Crag

Sometimes the people we think will never hurt us have been standing by watching us self-destruct all along, adding fuel to the fire. I don’t think they mean to. They may have even been trying to contain the explosion. Think about trying to put a grease fire out with water but don’t actually try it.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Crag”

Perspective on Mental Illness

I came across this today during my mindless scrolling on Facebook and perhaps this is an attempt to give meaning to my scrolling, justify it, or perhaps someone somewhere needs this. I did, once. Another perspective to consider: Everyone is fighting their own battles. People may not mean* to make ‘mentally ill’ people feel badContinue reading “Perspective on Mental Illness”

Poetry Series – Wonderful

The things we see, feed ourselves repetitively, slowly shape our core beliefs of ourselves and the world around us. This is the idea behind the nurture side of the nature vs nurture debate. We become what we are surrounded by. I think debates are so focused on figuring out who is right that they oftenContinue reading “Poetry Series – Wonderful”

Poetry Series – Meeting

I have never been the kind of person that likes to have a lot of people around but the people I choose to let in quickly become my world, so I choose carefully. Growing up, I met my favorite people in places that didn’t overlap. Three doors up best friend, high school best friend, collegeContinue reading “Poetry Series – Meeting”