Sometimes I feel guilty for just how much I enjoy spending time alone, even away from my partner, but the truth is it’s the only way I have right now to clear out the noise and get in touch with myself. I didn’t realize until last week that I keep getting sick at family partiesContinue reading “Poetry Series – Mixed Up Emotions”
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Poetry Series – Channel
Do you ever feel like you’re seeing a perspective too tall for your body? Does that even make sense? I have yet to meet someone else that says yes but sometimes, out of nowhere, I’m suddenly seeing much too high for whatever would be picked up by my bodily eyes. Do you ever smell smellsContinue reading “Poetry Series – Channel”
Poetry Series – Self Survey
What you quickly learn when you commit to growth is that you will often outgrow the people and environments around you. I find this to be the hardest part of continuing the journey – just how many people you have to let go, how many things you find the need to walk away from. WhenContinue reading “Poetry Series – Self Survey”
Poetry Series – Subconscious Murderer
I always have this fear that the bits of darkness I own, let slip out in my stories and poems, will come back to haunt me and be what drags me down. Honestly, I think that’s the fear we all have and it’s what usually stops us in our tracks to plug up whatever fuckingContinue reading “Poetry Series – Subconscious Murderer”
Poetry Series – Growing Pains
Nothing will be a greater test of our character than how we choose to respond when we’re in pain. I grew an attachment to the phrase, the day I read John Green’s words “That’s the thing about pain. It demands to be felt”. There is no escaping it, no running. Sometimes we delay it butContinue reading “Poetry Series – Growing Pains”
Poetry Series – Thank You, Love
I’m still learning how to let myself be loved. I know we’re all born with the ability, such a super-power, but so many of us lose it along the way. I’m working on recovering my powers. I think of my relationships as rehab for the soul. I’ve let a lot of people love me inContinue reading “Poetry Series – Thank You, Love”
Poetry Series – Warm Death
I find it comical in so many ways that I still ever have the nerve to say I actively practice letting go. Take a look at the last decade of personal relationships and you’ll catch this pattern of detaching but never really letting go. Stay just present enough to be relevant in their life, theirContinue reading “Poetry Series – Warm Death”
Poetry Series – Irving, Losing My Mind
I didn’t notice I was slipping until – I’m ready to hang myself – slipped into my mind without warning. I didn’t know I was distant until I stopped recognizing the person sitting next to me. When he reassures me and asks if I know that I can talk to him about anything that’s botheringContinue reading “Poetry Series – Irving, Losing My Mind”
Poetry Series – Hello, Demons
I had to leave my boyfriend a 5-page letter explaining that I’m having a hard time, don’t know how to be open about it and how he can help “de-escalate” me when I’m withdrawing and disassociating. Okay, I didn’t HAVE to but I either needed to do it or I was going to self-sabotage theContinue reading “Poetry Series – Hello, Demons”
Poetry Series – Too Fat
I’ve always been prone to nightmares but they seem to creep in the most when my waking life feels like it’s at its best. One moment I applaud myself for not taking things too personally, not projecting the past, and allowing myself to eat when I want to eat without telling myself I’m not worthy.Continue reading “Poetry Series – Too Fat”
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